The last entry covered quite a long period of time and made me realize that over relatively short periods, there doesn’t seem to be much for me to report on. However since starting the fourth and final CD in Awakening Level 1 I can definitely feel a huge difference in the effects compared to the preceding 3 CDs in this level.

With just under three weeks left before I should be ready for Awakening Level 2 I have a distinct feeling of overwhelm from the meditation practice, but much of this may be of my own doing.

Just over 3 weeks ago, the same day as starting the fourth CD, I started a new sleeping pattern in order to wring more productivity from my time, which entails getting up about 5 or 6 hours earlier than I have been used to and also a short sleep in the afternoon. This I will elaborate on in another post and various articles. In short it has had a great effect on nearly every aspect of my wellbeing and my productivity. A couple of weeks later, whilst reading The Answer, I re-evaluated my goals and my life & professional vision, created the Neural Reconditioning materials I needed and started the process about 5 days ago.

All of this combined has me, to some degree “All over the place”. Of course it’s not easy to determine, which of these practices and decisions are responsible, but being an advocate of existence being a whole rather than a collection of separate things I guess I would have to say that it is all of them combining to provide the affect I am experiencing, much like any experience is a reflection of everything you perceive.

So, I am aware of my responsibility for feeling rather dysfunctional and a little bit slack for the last 3 days, which puts me in good stead for keeping my focus on the task at hand: intending to live an extraordinary life. The decision to dramatically transform certain areas of my life has my mind screaming protests at every opportunity. I have experienced that before; last year when I started the Neural Reconditioning process the first time and the Holosync is digging deep down into the vault of my subconscious exposing some of my fears…possibly. I don’t know how to describe it. Still I have kept my intent strong with regard to getting up when my alarm goes off and staying committed to the NR process and the meditation

Bill at Centerpointe talks of chaos as the stage just before breakthrough. Once the current system can take no more, it breaks away, leaving a new system with a new, larger set of thresholds for what it can take. I experienced this very subtly in October last year, but now it seems less subtle.

Despite the discomfort in how all this feels and the fear that is present I am excited and eager to see how it all unfolds.