8th December 2008
I haven’t updated for a while and that is because I have felt pretty detached for a while. I just haven’t had anything to report on with regard to the Holosync program. I slacked off for a few days, but apart from that I have kept up the sessions and been ticking along as normal, but as is the case with Holosync, at least for me, there comes a point where I see something new or from a different perspective and that always seems like a sign to put an entry in the Holosync diary.
After returning to Level 2, disc 1 after going back to Level 1, disc 4 for a month I hit a bit of a slump. I assumed that the meditation was having quite a strong effect, so I stayed with it and tried my best to let everything be OK. Well after rising up again and feeling more productive (you can read about that on my music blog if you are interested) I noticed something very profound just the other day.
In the past, even with a vast improvement in my overall temperament since starting Holosync I have been, seemingly at the mercy of angry outbursts over small trivial things. When I say angry I mean, uttering expletives when I drop something; even if nothing is broken as a result, impatience with my computer like not being able to get the USB plug into the hole within 1 second or something (normally gets followed by a few expletives and a big sigh, like "Why does this always happen to me?"). Just general stuff like that, so you can imagine the response to getting stuck in traffic, misplacing my wallet when I am in a hurry to go out etc…
The other day I was experiencing some of these "problems"; actually it was with my computer as I struggled to connect a USB plug. I found myself calmly persevering for a good 10 seconds or so before it finally fitting in throughout which time I kept very cool and no change in my internal feeling or mood and as the plug went in I had this realization of what had happened, or rather what had not happened. It was like hearing a voice saying "You know Rob would have got really angry by now" and that made me smile.
Holosync is like that for me. It feels like nothing is happening for weeks, even months and then I notice something and I realize that I have come such a long way in that time. Other things that I experienced in that time come back to my memory and present themselves as "A-ha" moments as their lesson is exposed and this is the whole point of Holosync, indeed any method of meditation. What it does is raise your awareness. With an increase in awareness you become more and more able to view your life as an observer instead of being so identified with the lead character that your vision of what is really happening is impaired.
Holosync scores again. Some say that Holosync is too long and drawn out and there are other alternatives that take only a few months, but all I know is that you can’t rush greatness and from what I can tell, the result of meditation is a revealing of your greatness. What I also can tell is that there is so much "stuff" buried, wrapped around parts, clogging up the system that releasing your full potential takes more than a few months. Meditation is not a race and your prize at the end of it is incomparable to that of anyone else’s.
I hope this helps.
Rob
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Thanks for this. http://neuralreconditioning.com/ is now in my feed reader, I’ll keep and eye out for your next story. I like the layout of your site, nice and clean and easy to read. Thakns.
Hello. I found this blog by doing a search for holosync on google blogsearch.
I have been using holosync for the past week, and already have noticed some profound changes. When I started using holosync I made a commitment to fully and completely explore my inner reality and find out what exactly is inside me, in the spirit of total honesty and without judgment or denigration. I have approached it in the spirit of ‘bring it on’, and I’ll be damned if it hasn’t been brought!
Each meditation new subconscious material arises in my brain which I observe and integrate. Actually, ‘I’ am not doing anything… to be more accurate, it is being absorbed and integrated as awareness of it grows. There is more happiness, purpose, and most importantly, an underlying sense of peace/steadiness in my life, only after a week of practice.
My mind is pretty dark, but as I become aware of its darkness/twistedness I feel more compassion and love for everyone around.
Holosync has changed my life. And it looks like it’s changed yours too
. Keep up the practice, I know I will.
Prankeapple
http://inner-explorations.blogspot.com
Rob –
Thank you again for your Holosync diary. We are at about the same point (early in Level 2).
I have had some of the same experiences; I caught myself saying over and over again, “What’s wrong with me? Why am I doing/feeling/thinking this?” Watching this angry self-talk over several days led me to a two day period of intense self-loathing.
Fortunately, I have read (and reread) much of what Bill Harris has written. I was self-loathing and simultaneously looking forward to the breakthrough that this discomfort was leading to.
The evening of the second day where I was aware of this self-loathing, I had a very intense dream about starvation. I, and my friends and neighbors, were hungry – we were bartering for cans of food and rice and dealing with a major food shortage.
I can’t draw a straight line between self-hatred and starvation, but I woke up from this vivid and intense dream feeling completely purged of the negative feelings. That was about ten days ago and they have not returned. I feel much lighter now.
I don’t know how this happened, but I completely missed these comments. I received no notification of them, or not that I remember.
Anyway. The point is that I apologize for seemingly ignoring the three of you in your generosity of time and contribution to my website.
Thanks for reading and following (if you still do that is). These comments are excellent too. They are great contributions. Real experiences of Holosync users I couldn’t ask for more than that.
Thank you. All of you.
Rob