I have had bouts of feeling very uncomfortable. I would describe them loosely as a feeling of fear, anxiety and of despair. Fear of not succeeding in my life, fear of losing what I want to keep hold of. I suppose all the feelings of attachment and self-concern. The first of these episodes was around the beginning of July and I was walking around with a dark cloud over my head for nearly a week. I felt lost, like I was losing myself and I didn’t know what to do about it. However I did have the ware with all to eventually look at this from a distance and decide to observe it and to believe that this was all happening because I am growing out of an old way of being for the better. It culminated in me writing a few songs of some quality I believe, which was a great outcome.

How is it that the old saying The rich get richer, while the poor get poorer is not just a saying, but a stark reality? It is not just something that seems to be real; it is fact and this fact is down to a natural law, evident in nature, not just applicable to humans either.

I have got to the point where my safety mechanism is trying to warn me that I am breaking the rules of who "Rob" is supposed to be and to be honest it’s really very uncomfortable, even though I know in my mind that I am on the right path…

I have been using Awakening Prolog for about 5 months and it is quite noticeable how the intensity of its effects have decreased.